Car: It's in the works baby!

So it's officially in the works. I am going to be getting a new car I just need to save 1200$ which shouldn't take much time, maybe a max of 2 weeks?

I decided I'm going to just get a super cheap older car (Probably this 1997 VW Golf 1.8L) I've been eyeing out.

I really want to get one and then just pimp the shit out of it, to tell the truth! And I really need a car to get to both my work places, so my parents can stop complaining about driving me everywhere!

A Synopsis of the Life of Me

Okay first of all, it's so hard working 10.5h the night before a 8 hour shift the next day. Definitely not a fun idea in the first place, but I need the money so I'm hoping I can get over it.

Also downloaded the Sarah McLaughlin album Surfacing, because I decided that since I can't go to the Summerside Tour in BC or whatever it's called, that I will be there in spirit because that's the cheapest way to experience it sadly. Sorry Sarah, sorry Neil, Sorry Sheryl. Sometime soon, my loves.

I need a car because getting rides everywhere and having to wait around and deal with the drama associated with having to get my parents to do things for me is getting very old very fast.

And I'm not going to lie I am definitely considering moving out, I am just waiting for that one thing that's going to make me snap and just look for a place to move here. Sucks because the area isn't even that cheap, maybe just a tad bit more than Windsor's apartments but I think I could sustain myself with my tips and my resturaunt job.

Also, I am not going to lie I am not sure the whole Staples thing is going to work out... it just seems like a lot of stuff I am supposed to know and it's just hard, I know it's only been a few days so I am going to give it some more time and such and see what comes of it. If I get fired, I get fired. Until then I'll try to make as much money from them as possible, just incase.

Very sorry I haven't been blogging much I have just been so drained between work and such, I mean sure I've been doing at least one a day, but it's nowhere near up to my previous par of like 5 posts a day! But now I'm just levelling out.

I'm off to relax, listen to some more Sarah McLaughlin and decide whether I should go and buy a really comfy pillow and some muscle and ache relief because my ankles are seriously killing me, and last night I couldn't fall asleep for a long time because they were just throbbing!

Customers from Hell

Nothing worst than serving customers who are really really needy... now I don't mind it, don't get me wrong.
But if you're waiting on a family of 5 with a silver spoon (or however the cliche goes) and their order comes to 76.45$... their tip SHOULD be more than 0$.
Fucken eh I almost chased the fuckers down the street that's for sure.

Long long night last night, was supposed to work 12p-8p... which turned into 1140a-1030p with absolutely no breaks and nothing to eat! Didn't even get a chance to piss! (YIKES!)

It's ok though I mean, in the last few hours of serving I got the majority of my tips, which was pretty good (127.55$). So I surpassed by 10$/day tip expectation that I had set for myself LOL. Makes the day worth it I guess.

Anyways I am off because now I have to go back to the grind and work this morning 8am-4p and my ankles are gunna fall off... I need Tylonol Muscle Ache relief or whatever that shit was... Hey now I have money to maybe pay off my phone bill... but I have some other items I need a little more... Like a bottle of fucking wine after last night!

Damn you's a sexy bitch

Best song ever, David Guetta ft Akon: Sexy Bitch

And I decided that I love changing gears in a manual transmission... I just love the feeling and the control.

Would you be my manual transmission? ;)

True Blood! (This is a spoiler)

*I forewarn you I am going to discuss the episode here because I more or less just wanna get it out!*

Wow, eh? Wasn't that such a great episode, I'm not going to even lie right now but I totally cried... and I'm a pretty cold person (I'd make a good vampire.)

The fact that Goderic just gave up on everything after thousands of years of being a vampire was just phenomenal. You could sense it when he surrendered his position as Sheriff, there was just something not so right about it, he seemed to almost be giving up on everything.

I think that's where Eric was a little confused it seemed.

The scene where Eric was pleading for him to change his mind and was crying and speaking in their ancient language and tears of blood were flowing down his eyes, that's where I just lost it.

I know Goderic didn't have a huge role in the movie really, he was referred to, but the short while he was there he made a good impression (And sort of a little crush not gonna lie about that either) and seemed to have good intentions.

I was glad to see he didn't die in the explosion, and was almost completely uninjured even though he was soo close to the explosion. I guess it was a show of his strength.
And yet he sacrificed it all.

I am blown away. What a good episode!

I can't imagine being in his place though... I know I am so skeptical about things and life in general and I've only been around for 22 years now... I can't imagine the feeling of being "undead" for over 2 thousand years... no wonder he just gave up.

I can't believe he commanded Eric to back away and to let him die, that was pretty intense, but also begins to show maybe a new side of Eric in the episodes to come... a more emotional, and caring? Eric? I don't know we'll see!

All I know is Eric is Hot, Goderic had sexy tattoo's and I feel bad for Bill.
Maryanne is a fucking sketch and when she entered the restaurant and was like "The god before you demands a sacrificed" or whatever it gave me chills!

Anyways enough ranting about that for now - I just hadddd to get it out because there was just so much going on

Ps. Glad Lafayette and Terra's mother showed up and stole Terra... we'll see what happens there!!! I really want her to get outta there.

Bored

So I'm a tad bit (more like REALLY) bored.
I think i'm going to go to take a nap just because i can ...
Just discovered the band Bad Religion for the first time tonight and i must say i really enjoy.
So i'm going to add it as my favorite song for right now.

Other brother finishes work 12am... so i guess that's something to do there, i get to go pick him up i guess, unless my dad volunteers (which i kind of hope.)

Only work 4 hours tomorrow, but between my two jobs i work a total of 45 hours this upcoming week, which is good though i guess. And i also get tips at the one job so hopefully i might make some good money next week:

Weekly tip count: 50$?

That's not too extreme, considering i was told that waitors at the resturaunt do approx. 150$ a shift there... so i'll aim for 50$ for the week, just so i'm not let down haha.

Definition: Fall

Fall

Use Falling in a Sentence

–verb (used without object)

1. to drop or descend under the force of gravity, as to a lower place through loss or lack of support.

2. to become lowered or directed downward, as the eyes: My eyes fell before his steady gaze.

3. to pass into some physical, mental, or emotional condition: to fall asleep; to fall in love.

4. to be directed, as light, sight, etc., on something: His eyes fell upon the note on the desk.

5. to come by lot or chance: The chore fell to him.

Homosexual Friends: No messing around this time!

(Taken from my 20sb.com blog)

As most of my closest friends, as well as closest family know, I am a homosexual.

Now with this title comes a lot of negative stereotypes and astigmatisms
Fag, Queer, Gay, Fudgepacker, Faggot, Sissy, Nancyboi, Dicksucker, Cocksucker, etc.

But let's put those aside for now.

Here is my problem: Sustaining a nonsexual friendship within the gay community.

I have yet to meet many gay guys who are not willing to just mess around or have sex with their friends.
Why is this?

Sure I know we're guys, and guys have a very high sex drive... but should that contradict morals?
I know I've gone through my phases and such, like most guys whether hetero or homo do, but seriously some guys do not grow out of these phases and I am beginning to see it everyday more and more.

When it was pointed out (ignorantly, mind you) by my parents that gay guys sleep with guys because it's just what they do, I came to realise that that stereotype was in place for a reason.

This saddens me, because there are guys out there, like myself, that have grown up, developed some morals, and wish for JUST friends.

Horny? Throw on some fucking porn, don't do your friends.
That's disrespectful, and degrading.

It's so sad that I could have so much fun hanging out with someone as a friend who is gay, and then he pops the question of whether or not I want to mess around sometime, or even that night! Wow man, have we come that far? That it's safe to assume anyone attractive is willing to just mess around?

I don't know, it's just frustrating, and I'm sure very few people will read this but I had to just get it out... my frustrations that is.

So I write to you, and ask you... is there a chance? Is there much chance that two gay guys could be strictly friends with no sexual tension?

Because I'm finding it harder and harder to find any guys like this, and it's frustrating.

Whatever enough ranting to Massive Attack: Beautiful Drug

My Greatest Addiction: Vanilla Iced Coffee

so I know people always told me that Tim Hortons has a slight amount of nicotine in their coffee and such just to make it slightly addictive... that's a given.

and I know people when I worked at starbucks that were strictly against Tim Hortons for this idea, and a sense of superiority in the matter.

but they're just so fucking good! I absolutely cannot drink enough of these things and I feel so bad when I just devour them all the time. I know I try to limit myself to one or two (or three...) a day because well, it's a waste of money... but they're so yummy!

and not to mention a nice little cool-me-down in the nice weather given to us here in nova scotia.

so I thought I would buy you a one, as a taster just so you would understand where I'm coming from when I say they are delish!