Bullshit.

Why are people so fucking dodgy?
I make plans and we make plans and then things change and everything goes to shit and here I am waiting for "people to get back to me with what's going on." Well I'm sorry that's not something I'm going to bank on. For the following reasons:
1) I need to know whether or not to waste my minimal money on alcohol
2) Figure out whether I am driving anywhere and need to buy gas
3) Figure out what I need to wear and what's the occassion of the even to see whether I can find something to even wear
4) So I don't fucking sit around LIKE A LOSER.

So to all my so called fucking friends, thanks for getting back to me, thanks for hanging out with me all week when I told you to let me know and you said you would... when you've been "bored" and "looking for something to do" because I've seen the goddam facebook status updates... even commented on a few to get the point across.

So I won't forget this - And anyone who knows me well, KNOWS I won't forget this. You're good as gone, fuck off. I need to find new friends.

So should I go to the gym today? I was told that going to the gym everyday isn't good for you... but I've been noticing some very positive advancements so I like to think otherwise? Not sure then. Supposed to go out for a beer later with a friend but I'm not too sure I have the energy or the money to do it so I'm really not entirely sure about that either.

That and he has to get back to me anyways and let me know if he's up for a drink. So that just adds more hesitance to the whole situation. It's easier when people just say "Hey, we're going for a drink. Get ready." Because then I have the motivation to do it.

Ps. best beer every though. And at first I didn't really like it but then I really got a liking for it... I've always enjoyed some good foam, and this beer has the alcohol content and the foam. Sure it's a little heavy though, but it's a good sipping beer!

Not sure what today holds really, so it's going to be very interesting. I know I work until 9pm and then after I'm going to go visit my friend from Windsor, ON who's in town (Well, 30mins away) for the week with work.

A familiar face would be nice.

Ps. I got to go to the gym as soon as I get money, because I'm feeling so shitty about myself lately, it's just getting on my nerves.

Omg!

Omg it's almost Halloween! What a special day of the year for me and I am not even sure what I want to do yet! (Oh yeah and today is Thanksgiving but whatever, that's a stupid holiday anyways, other than giving me a free day off this week!)

I have yet to carve the two pumpkins I bought, so maybe I will do that tonight since I feel a little bit better, but I don't know...
Definitely enjoy driving my car around everywhere and I think tomorrow I'm going to Halifax with one of my friends from Staples, so that'll be nice. I'm totally going there just for Starbucks which is totally loser-ish of me... but I've been craving Starbucks for weeks now! Oh well.

Homosexual Friends: No messing around this time!

(Taken from my 20sb.com blog)

As most of my closest friends, as well as closest family know, I am a homosexual.

Now with this title comes a lot of negative stereotypes and astigmatisms
Fag, Queer, Gay, Fudgepacker, Faggot, Sissy, Nancyboi, Dicksucker, Cocksucker, etc.

But let's put those aside for now.

Here is my problem: Sustaining a nonsexual friendship within the gay community.

I have yet to meet many gay guys who are not willing to just mess around or have sex with their friends.
Why is this?

Sure I know we're guys, and guys have a very high sex drive... but should that contradict morals?
I know I've gone through my phases and such, like most guys whether hetero or homo do, but seriously some guys do not grow out of these phases and I am beginning to see it everyday more and more.

When it was pointed out (ignorantly, mind you) by my parents that gay guys sleep with guys because it's just what they do, I came to realise that that stereotype was in place for a reason.

This saddens me, because there are guys out there, like myself, that have grown up, developed some morals, and wish for JUST friends.

Horny? Throw on some fucking porn, don't do your friends.
That's disrespectful, and degrading.

It's so sad that I could have so much fun hanging out with someone as a friend who is gay, and then he pops the question of whether or not I want to mess around sometime, or even that night! Wow man, have we come that far? That it's safe to assume anyone attractive is willing to just mess around?

I don't know, it's just frustrating, and I'm sure very few people will read this but I had to just get it out... my frustrations that is.

So I write to you, and ask you... is there a chance? Is there much chance that two gay guys could be strictly friends with no sexual tension?

Because I'm finding it harder and harder to find any guys like this, and it's frustrating.

Whatever enough ranting to Massive Attack: Beautiful Drug

Hauntings from the past

Don't you just hate it when people you've deleted months (sometimes years) prior message you?

First of all if you deleted them then it's safe to say you don't care to talk to them anyways.
second, if it's taken them this long to message you then it's safe to say you (and they) don't care that much.

Happened twice today, one person i hadn't talked to in approx. a month and the other i hadn't talked to in over a year!

"Hey what's new?"
"Oh you know, so much in over a year you fucker."

No time for losers, i'm happy in my own little world.

gt's in leamington

just got back from leamington and i must say i had a nice little stay.
... and i relly felt good about helpin my mother out by driving my brothers to and from work and running some errands for her.

... i even folded up all the laundry that was in a basket in the basement that needed folding.

A++ son.

right now i'm just getting ready for tonights stag n doe, which should be a good time (i hope.)
... it'll be a nice little get-together with friends from starbucks as well as celebrating amanda's engagement or w/e.

anyways i'm off to shower and such and get this shit rollin'!

my 2 weeks notice!

So I decided to blog my 2 weeks notice experience, so we can all find out exactly what I said, and what happened.

What fueled my giving of the 2 weeks was the fact I was getting sick of all the bullshit around, including the joke that pulled wherein I put "Chris' effen bag" on his bag in the back - which fueled the whole notice.

So Steph C. (Manager) asked me to come into the back because she wanted to discuss the bag situation with me. So I rightfully went back and the convo went as follows (give or take a few situations/sentences)

Z: hey
S: did you leave a note for chris in the back?
Z: yea.
S: oh... well that's was inappropriate.
Z: ok... but did he get the note?
S: No.
Z: ... so... what's the issue here?
S: he could have gotten it but i noticed in time
Z: but DID he get the note...
S: no he didn't, but i will have to document this for future reference.
Z: oh ok (and herein i explained it was a joke and blah blah and meant for only the baristas on the floor because it was intended that i deliver the bag to chris that night... HAD HE SHOWED UP LIKE HE SAID.)

so herein i begin my 2 weeks notice.

Z: so steph since we're back here i wanted to talk to you when you had a few minutes.
S: ok sure what's up
Z: actually it's going to take more than just a few minutes.
S: oh. umm.. pull up a chair then!
Z: ok. ill start by saying this, i'm giving my 2 weeks notice... and i prepared a list of reasons *reaches for notebook in bag* as to why im giving my notice.
S: Ok...

so here is my list of items that i mentioned and explained to Steph.

- disrespect
- was told about jackie offered supervisor position after i brought to attention that i wanted that position - been known for over a year
- hours so limited cannot survive off 15.5h a week
- double standards here in company, alot of ambiguity
- very evasive
- supervisor position promises and hours promises and transfer promises
- very evasive management
- told me "best interest is at heart" in re: my hours, etc (slap in face)
- barista who's only been with company for not even 6 months getting more hours than me who's been at this store for over 2 years
- my review showed completely qualified and capable for supervisor position
- standards are ambiguous and constantly changing and therefore causing stress
- different managers different standards
- made many sacrifices for this company like eating one meal a day in hopes that someday (as mentioned) that i'd become supervisor
- was told when few people left and labor cleared up would be offering more hours and supervisor position
- i'm good worker and i don't deserve to be disrespected
- asked why take transfer for supervisor position from another store and not take from within our own store
- why hire more baristas when there are baristas here starving for hours and starving literally

meanwhile the entire time steph had no answers for my questions.
doing the usual evasive technique diverting attention and never really answering why DAYNA was taken as a transfer where i wanted teh supervisor position.

WHAT
A
LYING BITCH.

so that's it. i left out a lot of bullshit and filler stuff that was said because i just wanted to give a basic idea and to answer some questions and give you an idea of what i said.